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Well, sorry I haven't written in such a long time, but I've been locked up in the parish jail for the past month. I got into a car accident (it was my fault), and I FREAKED and left the scene. The police sent a dpeuty to my home in the middle of the night to arrest me in my NIGHT CLOTHES, and wouldn't even let me change my clothes! I just got out Friday night with credit for time served (exactly 32 days). But I'm finally home now with my loving family (Indigo and Braden). While in there, my other family (brother and sister-in-law) took my son away from Indigo in the middle of the night. I was going to get them arrested for kid napping, but they agreed to give him over to my parents. Then, my parents got a hair up their asses and wouldn't let Indigo visit with Braden. That pissed me off. She was so depressed, she didn't eat or sleep for a week. But I'm home now, and first thing this morning, we'll be on our was to a Notery to have papers drawn up saying Indigo, and his Godmother have FULL CUSTODY of Braden, just in case I go back to jail, so NO ONE can take him away again!!!My sister-in-law's friend (we'll call her Cunt-Nasty) called Child Services trying to say Braden was abused while in Indigo's care, which is NOT TRUE! She loves the baby, and would NEVER do ANYTHING to harm him!!!!! She isjust as much his mother as I am. If she were a man, they wouldn't have any problem letting him stay here with her. My family is twisted and insane! In past posts, I've praised my family for being so accepting towards Indigo and I being together, but behind our backs, they tell everyone he shouldn't be raised by lesbians. What Assholes!!!first off, i'd like to thank all of you who gave me such great advice. thanks for caring.
things have gotten lots better. no crack-heads have come by. Braden's at a friend's house. she loves watching him. tomorrow, Indigo and I have to do a BIG clean up in the house. it was a lazy weekend and the house looks like shit. i actually feel like shit. ever since my epidural for Braden, my back has been killing me! I can't get comfortable for anything!
so i DL'd Ice Age 2. has anyone seen it yet? How is it? any other GREAT movies out right now?
i'm tired. going take advantage of Indigo. 
Phrog
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yesterday was such a great day. today started out good, but tonight was kinda hard. Old "friends" started dropping by. One after another. And when I say "friends", I mean old drug buddies. I've closed that chapter of my life. I've moved on, grown up. I have a child to think about now. I can't risk losing him. But these fucking people keep popping up, even though I've told EVERYONE to stay the fuck away from me and my family when they're on that shit. It's like they're stuck on stupid. Can't comprehend a damn word. It's insane. I was actually afraid of falling off the wagon for the first time since I had Braden. Is this a test of my strength and weakness? I was strong enough tonight. I didn't fuck up. But I'm afraid of what'll happen "next time". What if Braden's at my mother's for the weekend? Will I be a sucker and fall for it? Or will I still be strong enough? I prayed harder tonight than I have in a very long time. I don't want to be like that anymore. I've cut "those people" out of my life, but they're like a bad STD....they just keep popping up at the most inoppertune times. They won't stay away. Any suggestions on what to do? I'm in a real pickle right now. I need help from someone outside of my situation. Please help. What can I do to keep up my strength? How do I put it into their heads that I don't want it, or them, in my life anymore? A friend's daughter just got home from a 10 month dope binge. She left her daughter with her mom for 10 FUCKING MONTHS!!!!!!!! Now she's been back home not even a week yet, and the bitch has the nerve to ask if we can find her some dope. What the fuck is going on with people? doesn't anyone care about their kids anymore? I can't go 2 days without my son. I can't imagine being away from him for 10 months, then risk losing him when I finally do get home. i don't like using the word "hate" because it's such a strong word, but i can actually say, with every fiber of my being, that I HATE this girl. Not only for what she's done to her daughter, but what she's done to herself, her family,and what she's trying to do to Indigo and myself (which is an entire dramatic issue in itself. I'll explain this issue in another entry). I'm just sick of all this bullshit. i want to pack our things and move my happy little family somewhere far, far away. I've always wanted to live in Canada. And Indigo and I can get married and raise Braden in an accepting, open, safe environment.
Someone, please reach out and reply to this. I feel like I'm losing my sanity. I don't have lots of "good" friends I can talk to, so all I have is you guys. I just need a little advice. and a pat on the back every once in a while, just to make sure I'm going down the right path, and making the right decisions. I need some feedback. Thanks. Nighty-Night.
today's such a beautiful day, isn't it? we bar-b-q'd today, my parents came for a visit, our water heater got fixed (it's been broken for a month), and i'm not feeling like crap. braden's had another big day, so he's a little fussy again, but not as much as yesterday. he slept so good last night. we finally have him on a schedual. he gets a bath @ 9 and i let him sleep for a while. i wake him up @ 12 for a bottle, and he sleeps till aound 3, takes another bottle, then sleeps till 7 or 7:30. it's so cool he knows night and day now. life is so much easier.
oh....my mom is so cool. today she handed down my great-grandmother's set of matching rings to me. she told me to keep one and make sure to give the other to Indigo. i can't believe how much she accepts indigo and i being together. growing up, she was SO against any homosexual. now she's pushing indigo and i to have a commitment cerimony untill we can find a place and the money to get married. it feels so good to finally be accepted! i guess she sees how happy indigo makes me, and how much she's calmed me down.
well, it's time to spend quality time with my family. till next time.......
Phrog
Hey all. I haven't updated in a while because I've been in the hospital, sick with pnumonia (sp?). At 3:00 am on the 11th, Indigo woke up to hear me gasping for breath with white crap coming out of my nose and mouth. She rushed me to th hospital, where i've been since. i was immediatly put on a resperator, and laid unconscience untill Friday night. They took me off the resperator and i steadily got better untill i was FINALLY released tonight @ 7:00. GO ME!! So now i'mm finally home where i belong with my loving girlfriend, and darling baby, who turned 1 month old on the 17th (which I missed). I hope everyone else's days were lots better. Let's pray no one else goes through that crap, or anything worse, because it ain't fun. Well, sleep beckons. goodnight all.
untill next time....
Phrog
Klein Sexual Orientation Grid
I scored an average of 4.95
| 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 |
| Heterosexual | Bisexual | Homosexual |
Meaning
This result can also be related to the Kinsey Scale:0 = exclusively heterosexual
1 = predominantly heterosexual, incidentally homosexual
2 = predominantly heterosexual, but more than incidentally homosexual
3 = equally heterosexual and homosexual
4 = predominantly homosexual, but more than incidentally heterosexual
5 = predominantly homosexual, incidentally heterosexual
6 = exclusively homosexual
Summary
The idea of this excercise is to understand exactly how dynamic a person's sexual orientation can be, as well as how fluid it can be over a person's lifespan. While a person's number of actual homo/heterosexual encounters may be easy to categorize, their actual orientation may be completely different. Simple labels like "homosexual", "heterosexual", and "bisexual" need not be the only three options available to us.Take the quiz
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